you know when you know things are ok but you stress about the unknown? thats how last night was for me.. maybe i worry to much, maybe i get too scared or repeat performances from almost a year ago.. i dont know... didnt get a call til 3am and found it really hard to sleep alone until then... was tossing and turning, stressing, was a bit teary and worried and made myself sick.. sounds stupid but anxiety hey... hmm then i get a call at 3am which i cant even remember the phone ringing for... but calm..... god damn i miss her..... the monotony of work seems pointless.... my bed is so empty... :( 4 hours of sleep...

-- later... just got a good morning call from her.. hmm awesome to hear her voice - its so nice to know she breaks the musician sterotype of drugs and sex whilst on tour (see i left the alcohol bit out for last night haha.. all over in the first night eh?) ah well, its nice to know shes so honest with me and we talk whenever we can... 10 days to go.. hmm im on count down...

If I had a single flower for every time I think about you, I could walk forever in my garden. ~Attributed to Claudia Ghandi