*sighs* what a day! and its only 8:53am!

where to begin? i really dont want to whinge.. but hell i need to vent... ok so i look outside now and its all beautiful and clear and sunny.. hah when i was on my way here to work, it was pouring outside.. sometimes things just dont go how u want them to go... so ive been catching the bus to work, well actually 2 buses to work, since ive started here pretty much bar about 2 days where i have been able to get a lift off someone.. sharing a car with 4 people can be pretty hard sometimes, but as long as everyone is prepared to give then it can work. :) this morning.. it didnt work.. I feel like a real arse becoz i made a huge deal out of it but well it pissed me off. We could have organised it so that everyone was able to be dropped off and maybe some would be earlier than they needed to be there, but it could have worked.. except i was told it was too hard.. so i got pissed off and said well i guess that means its too bad i have to catch the buses.. even though before i was doing this partly coz everyone was asleep... but now that everyone is awake, surely we can work it somehow.. but no.. obviously it was all too hard for everyone else... so i drew the short straw....

*sighs* in being me, being prone to being overly emotional.... overly reactive when something pisses me off... and *cough*not being the best time of the month*cough* i was annoyed and it was obvious.. i wear my heart on my sleve and im so not good at being fake... so i caught the buses to work.. in doing so i was texting M to try and vent my frustrations becoz i felt like crap... got on the bus to be told the fare had gone up.. (i had only budgeted for $2 there and $2 home) oh well.. guess im walking home... so i get on the bus, in hunting for my change i manage to drop my phone and its now chipped :( I love my phone... its almost 2 years old.. its a motorolla V3 Razor (silver) and its still in mint condition.. hmm not anymore.. has 2 chips out of the bottom *sulks* oh well.... so then the bus is absolutely crammed and over crowded, so i had to stand up along with 50 other people and moving even to get off the bus is next to impossible... but i make it.. and get off at my stop to cross the road and catch another bus - only to find that the skies have decided to open up with rain and i get very wet...

so im sitting at the bus stop, texting as i was.. i feel bad, i really shouldnt have vented to M but well i just really needed to get it off my chest how i was feeling - even if she wasnt the one who done anything wrong - i just needed to talk. so the next bus almost goes right past me.. speeding in the rain, hard to see someone small standing on the side of the road, trying to shelter from the down pour in a black coat..... but i catch the bus, theres a mate on there for work.. we head to work together.. get off the bus and get drenched trying to cross a really busy road and walk to work....

so now im finally here, the skies have cleared up and the sun has come out.. ironic huh? I called M to talk to her and feel horrible that i might have made her have a bad start to her day too.. not at all what i meant to do. its her first day at a new job - which she will be awesome at and im so proud!! she told me i sounded demanding this morning to her sister-in-law, when i suggested the better way to drop us all off.. *sighs* i really didnt mean to.. i just didnt want to have to be the one that gets the raw end of the deal when there was a way we could all work it out... ho hum.. so ive texted her to appologise but no one has responded...

so today i think i'll be better off drinking my tea, sticking earphones in and just doing my work... not my day so far.. oh look - theres a full rainbow outside...... awwwww