a new friend challenged me to write something, in hope that i would post on here again.. its been a long time coming... life has seemed to be zapped away, not enough time to stand still... always so tired... so my sould is open, the challenge that was handed to me was to: "

write a poem about disappointment without using the words "bitter", "broken", "tears", "hard" and "suffer""

....so here I go....

With isolated tendencies, I close my door,
painting sunflowers in my head, to try and brighten my day.
I can see it in your eyes. I can feel your shaky hands.
I know where you go, when you want to fall...

I stare for too long, at my broken mirror,
the shards of glass, cutting into images of me,
dont ask me who i am, for i do not know,
and I look at the sky with clouded eyes.

we live each day, clinging onto memories of the past.
as we struggle for freedom, inside our own heads.
emotionally connecting ourselves with others,
looking forwards and try not to fall.

My world is my prison, my world is my release,
i take myself away, and i bring myself to see.
I wear my mask, just a distorted shadow
and i loose all hope, when it looses me.

The rain washes away some of the pain,
and merges with the tears escaping from my eyes;
and I let all of my sorrow fall away,
sometimes we hold our fears too close.

as vivid colors of a metallic rainbow,
dance across your face,
I know im trying to break away from my mask
look into my eyes and see the real me,
as the pathways are infinite, and lead to my very soul.

open your mind,
and just take my hand,
everything will be ok because
you held me, and told me you loved me.

.... :)